Someone said to me, “Only you can shape your own reality,” and I’ve been cherishing those words ever since
We can’t always see each other, so there are parts of both of our lives that can’t be seen by each other
In the midst of all that, I don’t ever want to tell a lie to the people who are supporting me
For example, because there are fans who told me they like how I give things my all, I’m always thinking how much I can make that a reality even when they can’t see it
I don’t want to let everything you like about me remain as just an “image”, but a “reality”
I hope that could take proper shape and be conveyed as it is to everyone
Those were the words that I only shared to everyone who attended the first day of the performance,
But I wanted my words to be conveyed properly, so I wrote them in this blog
Thank you very much
For the 11th Single BACKS LIVE!
Everyone has some kind of emotion in their heart
Whether it’s a passionate thought or an emotion without warmth, it can surely be transformed into power
My wish was to deliver the power of each of the 11 people, each with their own color
As for how much I like her, it’s a secret
I sat next to her at the dressing room and talked to her excessively
Akiho-san’s answers for the family member name guessing game were really funny
We sure laughed a lot while practicing for the kagenare
Please hang out with me
We sure talked a loーt, didn’t weー!! ♡ All of them are precious memories to me
I will always tell Mii-san that I love her!
When I talked to my mother who came to watch after the concert was over
I unconsciously talked to her in formal language, and that made us laugh
When I thought that it might be because I was talking with the seniors so much recently, it made me chuckle
That’s really how much we talked
Sneaking a look at the seniors during practice gave me happiness
I recorded a video of “Isabelle ni Tsuite” which I really really really really love
Before I knew it, I became completely honest during this period
It’s all thanks to the members who stayed beside me
Lastly
The words that Nagi said during the MC on the first day really resonated in my heart, and I don’t want to forget it.
“The reason we were able to leave the role of chairperson to Yuzu with ease and how each member was able to focus on themselves is because Yuzu has worked so hard up until now.
Yuzu’s past efforts, from being in charge of the MC for the 3rd generation members since the Omotenashikai, and other things, have led to the sense of security and the atmosphere we have now”
That’s what she said
I was overwhelmed with gratitude for having such a member by my side who would say things like this to me
I had never been able to think of it that way, so I thought about those words over and over again that night
The role of leading the MC wasn’t suitable for me, and I became afraid to be entrusted with it
I felt pressured because I couldn’t accept the words, “You’re the coordinator of the 3rd gen members, aren’t you?”
Omotenashikai, Shinzanmono, the tour, 3rd gen concert
No matter how many times I was entrusted with the role, I always felt the same sense of inadequacy, or rather, I felt it getting stronger and stronger
That image revolved in my mind, and I nearly burst into tears, but I managed to hide it by laughing it off during the concert
I felt like I was rewarded a little for how much I persevered and did my best back then, so to say,
And if I think of it as if it was meant to be, in order for me to convey this atmosphere at this performance, I felt that it was all for the best
And this time, I could happily speak my mind and listen to what the other members had to say.
It was definitely because of the kindness and sense of security that the members gave me
That was something I was only able to learn because I was with these members
Truly, thank you very much
I was also glad to be able to face myself
Translator: megidola0n
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