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Good evening🌙

Thank you for coming to read my blog today💭

This is Sakurazaka46’s 4th generation Inaguma Hina

To everyone who has waited for me, thank you for waiting.

I’m back and feeling well⸜‪‪‪‪‪︎🐣⸝‬‪‪

I must have worried you a lot

To everyone who was looking forward to seeing me at Shinzanmono, and to those who took their time to come to the venue and also to those who were watching through the livestream, I’m really sorry for making you feel lonely because I wasn’t there

I’m filled with feelings of guilt, but whenever I apologise, you all always tell me, ‘Don’t apologise.’
That made me realise that my apologising might actually make you feel sad instead.
From now on, I want to grow a lot so that I can deliver these feelings to you as ‘happy news’ instead

Yesterday we had a real meet and greet!
It was fun, and I was able to make a lot of memories

But that talk will be in another blog!

This time, I would like to talk about the period of Shinzanmono~

Once again, thank you very much for Shinzanmono!

In this period, so many things happened in a short time that I couldn’t keep up with them! (lol)

But looking back on it, even though there were many warm moments and also many painful ones, it was an incredibly, incredibly happy time for me

During the lesson day, the feeling of being able to do more each day truly made me happy

I tried my best to keep up, and there was a time when all of us thought,”We have no time to sleep”

But seeing everything take shape made me happy, and above all, being able to share it with all of you made me even happier.

Since the start of Shinzanmono, so many, many Buddies have come to support us from the first day, and it gives me a lot of strength.

I was able to perform up through the sixth show, and even in just that short period, I truly felt an incredible amount of growth within myself

There were many times where things did not go well, and there were painful moments where I couldn’t show what I practised on stage,  finding things that I lacked, then moving on to the next stage, and then the one after that, through those trial and error, it was the most valuable experience for me.

To be honest, I thought “if I can get through this Shinzanmono period and make it to the end, then I can proudly say, ‘I’m a member of Sakurazaka” This belief was what supported me. So, when I found out that I was not able to perform, I didn’t know what I should do.

Once the thought crossed my mind, even just once, that everything I had built up so far might go to waste, I couldn’t stop those thoughts anymore.
Even though everyone told me, “Make sure to get lots of sleep and rest well,” I was wide awake, unable to sleep at all. I couldn’t bring myself to do anything, and I kept blaming myself over and over again

But as I read the messages you all sent me, the gloomy feelings I had when I was alone in my room slowly began to clear, and I felt bright words filling my heart.

From every photo you sent, of your pets, beautiful scenery, and pictures you took thinking of me, I received so much energy and encouragement.
Your words were all so warm and gentle, and realising that there are people who are waiting for me made the tears just won’t stop.

I believe it was the same for Momo-chan as well. I think she, too, was saved by all of you many times.

Please let me say thank you one more time.

I was taught that, “Whether or not you truly did your best is something others decide by watching you, not something you decide by yourself”. Because of that, I have never really thought of myself as someone who “Did their best”. But during this period, all of us fourth-generation members truly kept going while completely exhausted. So this time, I secretly wondered if it might be okay to praise myself and say, “You really did your best.”

And then, before I could even say it myself, all of you told us, “You worked so hard,” and praised the fourth generation in so many ways. That made me truly, truly happy, and it made me feel that I’m glad I kept doing my best.

Thank you very much from the bottom of my heart.

Throughout this period, I was able to see many wonderful, cool, and truly admirable qualities in each of the members. I’ve come to love the fourth-generation members more and more.

I want everyone to know each person’s wonderful qualities, but it would get too long, so I’d like to write about that another time.

On the final day, I can never thank the seven members enough who carried not only their own feelings but also mine and Momo-chan’s onto the stage. And to the staff who made that possible, and to all the Buddies who received our feelings, thank you so very much.

By cherishing this experience and all of these feelings, I want to keep growing more and more from here on out

Please take care of me from now on as well.